Inner Beauty

We as human being failed to do one of the most thing in our life,that is to accept and appreciate someone who they are but in reality,we only tend to accept those who they aren't. The so called high edge society is the top pick in everyone list. But how sincere are they when socialising?do they show their real face?mostly wont. why?coz it's image and reputation that is in the stake. one single mistake and kaboom,image spoilt Just imagine Justin Bieber pick his nose in front of you?whats in your mind?definitely gross but for those fanatic fan,whatever the star do they'll consider it as wonderful. Are these kind of people trustworthy?do they deserve that much of attention?I cant really comment in this part coz maybe my opinion is not as you,maybe my opinion will raise anger in you. this  question,must be answer by yourself first before being able to receive others answer. As for me,I wont put 100% of trust in them. I only trust those who show me who they are really,front and behind. I only trust those who accept me for who I am. Even how bad the situation is. There is this once occasion,where I have been Kick out of college,I lost nearly all of my friend. I deserve that coz I have betray their trust,I have betray the trust given by all,Parent,Tutor,Lecturer and my friend(groupmate,swc member). I regret for what had happen,I didnt appreciate the thing that fall upon me that time. I fail to see it coming this soon. In this cold hour,I have lost everything. In everyone eye that time,i'm a failure and I dun do anything about it. In these time,i experience the pain man must bear,not only man but all perople. because of this incident,I knw who really cxare for me,who really stay beside me whenever i need them. they set the light up for me,to start everything back from scratches.Theres this four person that I really like to thanks,that really are my saviour in time of crisis. I never expect this come too but miracle do happen. He bestow me with some loyal friend.
The first one that really help me is Nicoled,if not because of her i will still staying in my black world,if not because of her i wont be able to stand up again. She's the first one who really wiling to lend her hand,bring me leave that pathetic sad place. She never really care for what I have done,never really care how fail I am. She stand beside me,lead me and soon enough I leave that place,I start a new life,I'm no more in the hole. frankly speaking,i never really knew her but because she never fail to lighten my life,sooner I get to know her. She's seem wild outside,wmo goth,spoiled brat but her iner part is different,she's so beautiful inside. Maybe she's experience more hardship than me when she's small,thats why she knw how to care for others. She's willing to be at your side whenever you need. thats the friend i adore most. Btw we're no longer fren,we're brother sister =)
The another person that changed my life is my another sister,Alicia Hon. Basically ehy both aren't my real sister but i treat them as one of my family member. I love them as a part of me. She is one of my classmate in college,we've been through many thing together. We joke,we crazy,we fail together. We laugh together and we share each other tear. After the incident in college,everyone in my gruop starting to leave me one by one. they treat me as invisible man. Im no longer exist in their life,I'm a big dissapointment to them but she,she never hate me(basically hate in other term yes XD). She's there whenver i need one. Well she did hate me onec i think,coz i never really open to anyone,i kept everything in me. I never share my pain to anyone till the day we went to Port Dickson,while nicoled and ivan busy making love we walk around using Nic granpa car,we talk we understand each other and the bond exist. Everything jus happen like that,till now she's still at my side whenever i need her. 
A guy,named Kenny one of my groupmate also has changed my life after what happen. Because of him i get to get closed to Him,because of him I knw there's always one person that love me,our merciful Father in heaven. There's one period of time he also disapear in my life,he's busy with his own life til one day he suddenly call and ask whether i'm interested to follow him tohis church. I was shock at first but there's something in me that tell me go along. I went to FGA from that day onward and find back my salvation there. I can feel back his existance beside me. HE never fail anyone,for He is the merciful Father. I did ask him,of all people that he can choose bring to his church,why me?and the answer really touched me. H e prayed to Him,ask Him guidance to bring who to his church and my name suddenly pop up in his head. Because of him,i know there'll always someone beside me protecting me when im in the most vulnerable condition.
Last but not least,there's also someone that play an important role in my life.It's my hometown buddy,Carlos. He is also always at my side,never look down on me after know what had happen. He talk to me,give some encouragement to change my life. I've known him since we're 15(basically we're same class since form one but never really get to know him) till now,its been like 7 years already without we realising it. He's my brother,the big bro tat i dun really have.
Everyone have its own beauty,we haven't see it yet. and to see it, we must let others know the beauty in us first. We cant expect someone to knw us when we ourselve hid ourself from others. Here I will like to express my gratitude to all that have ever been there for me,and for those who still see me as rubbish,I still love you all deep inside. i wan to apology to those that i have dissapointed,especially parent,DME group B member,and swc member,i owe you all an apology. I know i dun deserve forgiveness but I wanter you all to knw that,Im deeeply sorry for what i did.