Inner Beauty

We as human being failed to do one of the most thing in our life,that is to accept and appreciate someone who they are but in reality,we only tend to accept those who they aren't. The so called high edge society is the top pick in everyone list. But how sincere are they when socialising?do they show their real face?mostly wont. why?coz it's image and reputation that is in the stake. one single mistake and kaboom,image spoilt Just imagine Justin Bieber pick his nose in front of you?whats in your mind?definitely gross but for those fanatic fan,whatever the star do they'll consider it as wonderful. Are these kind of people trustworthy?do they deserve that much of attention?I cant really comment in this part coz maybe my opinion is not as you,maybe my opinion will raise anger in you. this  question,must be answer by yourself first before being able to receive others answer. As for me,I wont put 100% of trust in them. I only trust those who show me who they are really,front and behind. I only trust those who accept me for who I am. Even how bad the situation is. There is this once occasion,where I have been Kick out of college,I lost nearly all of my friend. I deserve that coz I have betray their trust,I have betray the trust given by all,Parent,Tutor,Lecturer and my friend(groupmate,swc member). I regret for what had happen,I didnt appreciate the thing that fall upon me that time. I fail to see it coming this soon. In this cold hour,I have lost everything. In everyone eye that time,i'm a failure and I dun do anything about it. In these time,i experience the pain man must bear,not only man but all perople. because of this incident,I knw who really cxare for me,who really stay beside me whenever i need them. they set the light up for me,to start everything back from scratches.Theres this four person that I really like to thanks,that really are my saviour in time of crisis. I never expect this come too but miracle do happen. He bestow me with some loyal friend.
The first one that really help me is Nicoled,if not because of her i will still staying in my black world,if not because of her i wont be able to stand up again. She's the first one who really wiling to lend her hand,bring me leave that pathetic sad place. She never really care for what I have done,never really care how fail I am. She stand beside me,lead me and soon enough I leave that place,I start a new life,I'm no more in the hole. frankly speaking,i never really knew her but because she never fail to lighten my life,sooner I get to know her. She's seem wild outside,wmo goth,spoiled brat but her iner part is different,she's so beautiful inside. Maybe she's experience more hardship than me when she's small,thats why she knw how to care for others. She's willing to be at your side whenever you need. thats the friend i adore most. Btw we're no longer fren,we're brother sister =)
The another person that changed my life is my another sister,Alicia Hon. Basically ehy both aren't my real sister but i treat them as one of my family member. I love them as a part of me. She is one of my classmate in college,we've been through many thing together. We joke,we crazy,we fail together. We laugh together and we share each other tear. After the incident in college,everyone in my gruop starting to leave me one by one. they treat me as invisible man. Im no longer exist in their life,I'm a big dissapointment to them but she,she never hate me(basically hate in other term yes XD). She's there whenver i need one. Well she did hate me onec i think,coz i never really open to anyone,i kept everything in me. I never share my pain to anyone till the day we went to Port Dickson,while nicoled and ivan busy making love we walk around using Nic granpa car,we talk we understand each other and the bond exist. Everything jus happen like that,till now she's still at my side whenever i need her. 
A guy,named Kenny one of my groupmate also has changed my life after what happen. Because of him i get to get closed to Him,because of him I knw there's always one person that love me,our merciful Father in heaven. There's one period of time he also disapear in my life,he's busy with his own life til one day he suddenly call and ask whether i'm interested to follow him tohis church. I was shock at first but there's something in me that tell me go along. I went to FGA from that day onward and find back my salvation there. I can feel back his existance beside me. HE never fail anyone,for He is the merciful Father. I did ask him,of all people that he can choose bring to his church,why me?and the answer really touched me. H e prayed to Him,ask Him guidance to bring who to his church and my name suddenly pop up in his head. Because of him,i know there'll always someone beside me protecting me when im in the most vulnerable condition.
Last but not least,there's also someone that play an important role in my life.It's my hometown buddy,Carlos. He is also always at my side,never look down on me after know what had happen. He talk to me,give some encouragement to change my life. I've known him since we're 15(basically we're same class since form one but never really get to know him) till now,its been like 7 years already without we realising it. He's my brother,the big bro tat i dun really have.
Everyone have its own beauty,we haven't see it yet. and to see it, we must let others know the beauty in us first. We cant expect someone to knw us when we ourselve hid ourself from others. Here I will like to express my gratitude to all that have ever been there for me,and for those who still see me as rubbish,I still love you all deep inside. i wan to apology to those that i have dissapointed,especially parent,DME group B member,and swc member,i owe you all an apology. I know i dun deserve forgiveness but I wanter you all to knw that,Im deeeply sorry for what i did.

Time passed

Today I was suppose to go work but end up i skipped it,why?coz I'm attending my primary school classmate wedding counquet. It's been like 10 years we didn't meet and when i saw her,she was totally different people from the person in my mind. I gave a super lame reason to my boss,saying I accidentally twisted my ankle and need to tie da. summore I did ask him where can I find the tie da shop in Miri(I admit I'm miri sesat hahaa). Like what I always heard before,wan act at least act till finish.=)

Reason why i dont just take sick leave?coz I was just informed by my another friend about the wedding a night before. It was like,fraking late to apply for leave futhermore it's sunday. I can confirm that my boss wont approve my leave by Sunday~ Well,this is not the first time my salary get deducted coz didn't attend to work without proper MC.

Basically my fren married to a muslim(meanin she had to change her name) and they hell thier wedding at their house. Put up a mini tend so that guest wouln't get burn by sunlight. Ya they do have fan but it's still freakin hot inside,imagine squeeze urself with around 200 other people. Main reason I atttend her wedding is because I wanted to meet her back after long time,secondly learn bout the culture,how they celebrate their big day. Eventhouhg it's not a perfect banquet,but still it leave some memory to me.

To think back,I'm not the youth kid anymore. It's transition period for me. To be responsible for whatever I do,to think for my future.

Buzz bout' me~

This was meant to be a private blog with only some few frens that will know bout it. Unless you really find out out yourself then I'm really speechless for your luck. =) Ok back to title below is some basic thing about me that you should knw first ~

My full name will be Albert Ho Jie Lon,frankly speaking i dont really love my chinese name(dun ask me why haha). Pratically everyone just call me Bird and i get used to that name ady =). Was born in Kuching,Sarawak on 25th of May 1988. Even though was born in Kuching but i dun really live there,move to Miri by the age of 5 and now still living here.

This boy was born in a family of 7,parent,1 brother and 3 sisters. I do have additional 2 sister that is not blood related. They are Nicoled Teo(left) and Alicia Hon(right),I LOVE them just like a family. They meant a lot to me.
My life will be super miserable if not because of them,if not for them Im still in upside down condition. Thanks both of you for the unconditional love You all give me.

Basically I'm the so called cool type,it took some time for me to heat up to really know someone. Most important thing is Im not the action type,I'm the responder XDDDDD. For those who dun knw me,they will say that im pratically cold,emotionless. "I dun dare to near you coz ur too cool"this is one of the thing that I myself always heard from fren that get to know me. Maybe it's because of how family handling things,end up thats the way I'm socialisinG. But i can confirm one thing,that is if i get close to someone i'll become the another me. Im no longer cold bird that you see once. I'll just suddenly transform to wacko bird haha.I can do anything insane enough,i can be the fun type if allowed. My jokes will always more to yellow type,its just in me. "if you're not yellow,then you're not bird" thats another quote that i always hear from my fellow fren.(Destine to be Yellow man of Digi)

Basically this is the thing that you ought knw about me. Yes Im not perfect person but I'll try to be the perfect fren in your life. =)))))))))))))))))))))))))))